it’s weird. there are times throughout the day that i think, “oh, that’s worth noting.” and then, i sit in front of the computer and i can’t remember. i wonder if that has anything to do with the fact that lil miss is still not sleeping through the night… argh.
people frequently told me that once i had the baby that i would never be able to imagine life without her. i find that to be completely untrue. i have a rather good idea as to what my life would be like.
i’d be running. i’d be making dinner, baking, quilting, and sleeping at least six hours a night. in a row.
i’d be up on current events. i’d have seen movies and gone out past six p.m.
i’d be drinking coffee, not the decaffeinated stuff, and a glass of wine.
i would not be waking up to the sounds of a little baby hooting like an owl in her crib as she wakes up. i would not be chasing a little wagging toosh across our floor or watching a little baby walk towards me with outstretched arms.
i would not be covered in baby slobber from baby kisses. and i wouldn’t be changing dirty diapers. or wiping up baby food that gets sprayed from raspberries being blown during mealtimes.
my heart would not melt each and every time i heard her giggle. nor would smiles come unbidden to my lips as i watch her discover the wonders of the kleenex box (did you know if you pull a tissue out, another one comes up behind it? and another?!)
i would not be falling in love all over again with each chance i get to glimpse that little face and discover more of this unfathomably fascinating person. and thanking God incessantly for this miracle that has given my life a new fullness and overwhelming wholeness.
yeah, i can imagine my life before i had a baby. you can have it.